Day 7 - Survival

I'm extremely chuffed with myself. I nearly fell off the raw wagon in a BIG way last night..... I was with my sister and my parents last night for dinner (not unusual) however last night I was HUNGRY after work so I was kind of lost in this sense of 'I need to eat' or 'I DESERVE (that word again) to eat whatever as I'm hungry'. Thing was, my sister and my mum were having a lamb roast dinner (not too worried about that as been vegetarian for over a year, although STILL it smells good...whereas the thought of chicken wants to make me puke) and my dad made himself some bruschetta and some pizza.

I LOVE bruschetta. Although now that really should read LOVED. The thoughts that went through my mind last night?:
'I'll have half the bruchetta and then my big green salad'
'I'll have half of dad's pizza and no bruschetta and my big green salad'
'I'll have both and if I have the dessert too then thats ok, ONE DAY WON'T HURT ME!' (GAAAH! I despair at myself lol)

SO - I took myself out of the situation, went upstairs, washed my face and repeated to myself 'I want to be raw' about 100 times. Sounds stupid but I ACTUALLY did this lol. I then came back down the stairs and proceeded to grate some carrot which I had wrapped in some baby gem lettuce leaves and humous with some raw tenderstem broccolli as crudite. I sat there and ate my salad (I couldn't actually finish it) and watched my family chow down on the plethera of cooked food. It really was a touch and go situation, to the point where I even had a bite of my dad's pizza. I poured myself some chilled water in a wine glass to avoid the temptation of a cold glass of white. We sat down to watch a film and I had a couple of teaspoonfuls of my dad's dessert (cheesecake).

All in all though, I am pleased with today. It could've gone soooooo horribly wrong. At one point I was totally sure I was going to have a cooked dinner and today I am so glad I didn't. Today's started really well but I'll leave that for the next entry.

Started re-reading this for inspiration and affirmation: